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| -  - | Tuesday, March 29, 2011 |  
| I've learned that the less you invest the less you stand to lose
 I'm scared that I've squandered time and I don't push myself hard or far enough.
 Before I head off to college, I need to prove it to myself.
 
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| - Psychoanalyzing Ghaddafi - | Monday, March 28, 2011 |  
| http://www.nytimes.com/2011/03/29/science/29psych.html?ref=world
 
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| - Escuela - | Tuesday, March 22, 2011 |  
| School:
 U of U: Accepted. Full ride plus 500 dollars/semester stipend
 Tulane: Waitlisted
 UChicago: Waitlisted
 University of Washington: Accepted. No money for out-of-staters
 Rice: Waitlisted...
 Berkeley: Accepted
 Pomona: Waitlisted
 Carnegie-Mellon: Accepted
 UVA: Accepted
 Cornell: Rejected
 UPenn: Rejected
 
 Word.
 I have narrowed it down to deciding between Berkeley, U-W, and UVA.
 
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| -  - | Sunday, March 06, 2011 |  
| I mean, I forgot how much I loved you until this dull ache started
 Way down somewhere deep, in between a tickly place and a gut-wrenching scream
 The sick giddiness you get when you hear horrifying stories of women going into labor for forty hours
 The lake, smooth, placid, and ink-black
 Reflects the sleek white towers of the oil refinery, spewing
 Steady curls of steam and
 Flames billowing from steep, steel spouts
 Quiet across the water, in spreading golden streaks.
 She bounced outside with a cigarette pressed against her lips
 Begging the last bits out of it with every
 Cold, shuddering breath.
 The moisture and salt stuck in our lungs
 We danced in the headlights, dim and yellow in a semicircle
 Before the closed gates, like maddened convicts
 Our hair spilling in the wind
 Screams stopping five feet away in the
 Thick, moist air.
 I watched you, while you closed your eyes against
 The fairy-lit hill, silhouetting your pretty, dark head.
 
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